2004

for so long now

these feelings have existed

they have tormented

the need to be loved

to feel loved

the simplest of desires

the basic of needs

i feel as though

i’ve said so much

without saying anything at all

actions should speak so loud

yet they haven’t

you say i had my chance

and maybe i did

i don’t know

maybe i’m crazy

that was then, this is now

but i thought you never gave up hope

so many years of hope

maybe i should now

just go or go ahead

move on and away

i’ve carried these thoughts for a while now

maybe the vision is clear

i should realize the truth

but the truth is so hard

so just go

or go ahead

i long

for the words
to express

the poet

that is i

they
have not come

so easily

as of late

the thoughts

just don’t think

the poet

does not
have

the poetry

the long road ahead
many miles already gone
once a life of dread
for the long ride home

looking back at the movies

the movies of my life
i see the pain and tears
the long road of strife

and through the past

i’ve grown so strong

i look to the future
of a life so long

i stop for a glance

before it’s all gone
one last look at life

for the long ride home